after an important exam for me, in a rainy and stormy day, i had gone to bursa for the psychology congress. my group friends had gone earlier because they didnt apply for erasmus. while we were in bursa, altough i was tired, we had spend good times, we ate good things, seminars were very inspiring. and an assistant proffessor from Ege Uni who gave physiology lesson to us, made us a promise about his studies and summer school. i want to believe him :D saturday, simge and me decided to go to istanbul for concert and we went. it was my first time in istanbul, its unbelivable. İstanbul as i see, enormous and gorgeous. it was only 7 hours in istanbul and i loved it. i wish had spend more time and discover the city, but i have no money and time for this. i hope i will one day. and back to the izmir because monday midterms would start unfortunately. 6 unnecessery exam. i hated studying and yesterday they finished and i couldnt do nothing. i studied not much, i didnt expect hard question like those, tough. fuck it.

what am i supposed to do? i feel like relationships are temporary all the time. i dont want this because it happened always same and i hurts when people go away from you. it happened and it seems it will be again.
work hard, play hard
love more
dont expect anything
sometimes i feel very bad, its hard to guess what will happen and it makes everything complicated. we have reality and i have dreams.. i wish next year, i would travel europe. i want to move on from where i started. i wanna making progress.
the girl who i left in the past was weak and poor, and i never want to be like this again. i must handle all problems even my periods.